Too Scared To Try

What am i trying to tell is..
I am Scared.

I am Scared of what people might think or react when i'm totally change my mien.
I'm just too bored with this appeareance..
I just think i need something new. I need to try to be someone different from ussual.
But i'm too scared to see people laughing at me just because i do make up before going anywhere or i wear wedges everyday.

I ever wore a necklace when i was hanging out with my friends. They was laughing at me and asking why did i wear that.
What if i wear a wedges when i'm with them. Maybe they would rolling on the floor laughing at me.
And why everybody always ask 'why' if i looked feminin? Even it's just a little feminin.

ahh maybe i should stop typing right now.
It all just anger here..
Bye :)